| Location | Tilbury Essex |
| Age | 12 years |
| Cause of Death | Cancer |
| Date of Birth | 16/03/1996 |
| Date of Death | 01/01/2009 |
| Visitors | 2,594 since 14/01/2009 |
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Jordan was the sweet loving little fella. His skin was a soft as silk, he loved to me hugged but
always resisted kisses although I believe he liked them just liked to put on a show so you had to
chase him for one, he loved to have fun with his family, and especially loved his younger cousin
Kasey who was born just two days before Jordan was diagnosed with a rare brain tumor,some how they
had a special bond.
He has fort hard for three years bless him and been really brave when on treatment he wanted to go
into the army guess he had fort a harder battle in reality.
He was a very special little man I miss him so much!
Precious Gift
� Sherri Lawrence
When times seem too hard to bear & I l feel like giving up
I vision your beautiful face, the twinkle of your eyes and things of such
The bond we created from my womb to the day you were born
Is a mother and child bond that can never be torn
With the strength and guidance of God and the blessings he pours down from above
I want to be the best mom I can be to you and embrace you with all my love
You are as precious as a flower and as gorgeous as a rose
You have been specially made to the very tip of your nose
You are as sweet as honey; such an innocent young child
You are brighter than any star in the sky every time you smile
I want you to be proud of who you are and strive to be the best
Put forth your efforts to achieve your goals and let God do the rest
I will always be your mother first, but I'm also your friend
Your are the most precious gift, that I've ever been given
With All My Love,
Mommy
ALL MY LOVE GLORIA ANTHONY'S MOM.
I WILL BE GONE FOR THE NEXT WEEKS AND 1/2. ITS ANTHONY'S 1ST ANGEL DAY ON OCT. 25. I WILL BE WITH MY SON DURING THIS TIME. I WILL BE BACK ON THE 27TH OF OCT. IF YOU COULD PLEASE WATCH OVER MY ANGELS WHILE I'M GONE. I THANK YOU. YOU AND YOUR ANGELS WILL BE IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS DURING THIS TIME. GOD BLESS YOU ALL. THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU DO. ALL MY LOVE XOXO
MY BELOVED ANGEL
Each day I wake up from a terrible dream,
Only to find the world has changed.
I go to your room; your things are still there
Your toys, your medals and your favorite bear.
The scent of you lingers, the smell of your hair
Memories of you, I find, are everywhere
Your precious books are stacked by the bed
And tissues that captured your tears as you read
Your paintings and drawings still hang on the wall
Collections of seashells and rocks from the beach
Bring back the memories of the times well spent
How do I go on without you by my side?
To love you to hold you, with smiles and pride.
My heart, it is broken, my dear beloved child
I miss your laughter, your music and your smiles,
All of our dreams of the future will never come true
The 'whys 'and 'if onlys 'endlessly swirl in my head
Please tell me, oh God, I wish I were dead
I want to be with you every second of the day
But Dad and your brothers, they need me to stay
Your friends and your family will never forget,
Your friendship, your love and your gentle kindness
You will live on forever in their hearts and their minds,
I will love you forever my darling, my child.
I AM SO SORRY FOR THE LANK OF CANDLES. I AM STILL NOT FEEL WELL. THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT AND WELL WISHES. THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME GET THROUGH MY DAD'S BIRTHDAY. PLEASE PRAY THAT I GET BETTER SOON. I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO. I WILL BE GONE DURING OCT. 22ND THROUGH 27TH. I WILL BE WITH MY BABY ON HIS 1ST ANGELVERSARY. PLEASE KNOW THAT I WILL BE THINKING OF YOUR ANGEL DURING THIS TIME TOO. ALL MY LOVE GLORIA
PLEASE PRAY FOR ME THAT I HAVE THE STRENGTH DURING THIS TIME BECAUSE I STILL FEEL SO LOST WITHOUT MY BABY. XOXO
Memories are shared about you every single day, you are talked about every minute and thought about every second.
Christopher is always talking about you to me and I just really really wish that I had gotten to know you alot better than I did, cause from what I've heard we are very similiar in ways. But everyday as I learn new things about you I feel as though I am becoming closer to you. I just wanted to let you know that your big brother misses you so so soooooo much and even though he is playing the big man at times he still misses and loves his little man very much.
All my love...
x x x
“To My Child: Just for Today”
Sally Meyer
Just for this morning, I’m going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying.
Just for this morning, I will let you wake up softly in your flannel PJ.s and hold you until you are ready to stir.
Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear and I will say how beautiful you are.
Just for this morning, I will step over the laundry to pick you up and take you to the park to play.
Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink and let you teach me how to put that puzzle together.
Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off and sit with you in the garden blowing bubbles.
Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once – not even a tiny grumble when you scream – and wait for the ice cream truck and I will buy you one if he comes by.
Just for this afternoon, I won’t worry about what you are going to be when you grow up or how you might have been before your diagnosis.
Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me make cookies and I won’t stand over you trying to fix things.
Just for this afternoon, I will take you to McDonald’s and buy us both a happy meal so you can have two toys.
Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you the story of how you were born and how much we love you.
Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the bathtub and I won’t get angry when you pour water outside the tub.
Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit in the porch swing and count all the stars.
Just for this evening, I will bring you glasses of water and snuggle beside you for hours and miss my favorite TV show.
Just for this evening, when I run my fingers through your hair as I pray, I will simply be grateful that god has given me the greatest gift ever given.
I will think about the mothers who are searching for their missing children. The mothers who are visiting their children’s graves instead of their bedrooms, and mothers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly and screaming inside that they can’t handle it anymore.
I want to kiss you goodnight. I will hold you a little tighter; a little longer.
It is then that I will thank god for you and ask him for nothing, except just one more day.
IF WE COULD JUST HAVE ON MORE DAY. ALL MY LOVE GLORIA ANTHONY'S MOM XOXO
THIS POEM WAS SENT TO MY EMAIL AND I WANTED TO SHARE IT WITH YOU. GOD BLESS YOU XOXO
Dream... Dreamers... Dream
~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~ *~♥x♥~
A loving angel came to me in dreams.
She showed me life's not always what it seems
And brought me to a place where sweet dreams live.
She gave to me a gift that I now give . . .
A dreamer's dream.
She whispered, "Take my hand and I will lead you through
A place where only sweet dreams can come true.
Close your eyes and open up your heart,
For then this flight of dreams so sweet can start.
Dream, Dreamer, Dream."
She brought me through the darkness to the Light
Where colors wrapped around me, such delight,
A patchwork quilt of beauty without seams
Each color was a rainbow full of dreams,
Dreamer's dreams.
She led me through a hallway of pure sound
With doors flung open widely all around.
And from each room a song would gently play,
I wished with all my heart that I could stay
In this dreamer's dream.
But we drifted in the fragrance of the breeze
To savor all the flowers and the trees.
We tasted all of life that we could see
And felt it flow as one in harmony...
We dreamed this dreamer's dream.
Then my angel turned her eyes to me and said,
"You are the Keeper of these Dreams inside your head.
Find sweet dreamers who would dream of Love and Light,
These dreams will lead them safely through the night.
Help these dreamers dream."
And so I am the Keeper of this Dream, it's true,
But I offer all my dreams to each of you.
May their loving sweetness visit you each night
And fill your soul with Love and Warmth and Light.
Dream, Dreamers, Dream!
~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~ *~♥x♥~
(By Robert Alan)
ALL MY LOVE BEAUTIFUL JORDAN, SORRY FOR THE LACK OF CANDLES. MY KIDS GO BACK TO SCHOOL AT THE END OF THE WEEK, SO MAYBE I WILL BE ABLE TO SPEND MORE TIME ONLINE.THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT. I HOPE YOUR FAMILY HAVE A DREAMERS DREAM TOO. ALL MY LOVE GLORIA ANTHONY MOM XOXO
Still Missing You
They say there is a reason
They say that time will heal
But neither time nor reason
Will change the way we feel.
For no one knows the heartache
that lies behind our smiles,
No one knows how many times
we have broken down and cried.
We want to tell you something
so there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of
but so hard to be without.
We cannot bring the old days back,
when we were all together
The family chain is broken now,
but memories live forever.
Unknown
SORRY FOR THE LACK OF CANDLES, STILL TRYING TO GET ME ACT TOGETHER. MY HEAD IS SPINNING ALL THE TIME. SO I'M SEND YOU SO MUCH EXTRA LOVE. HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEKEND. ALL MY LOVE GLORIA ANTHONY'S MOM XOXO
BUTTERFLY WINGS
In a green meadow filled with Milkweed and flowers there lived a colony of
caterpillars. They were a happy colony, living a quiet life in the cool
shade. For many months they were very busy,
scurrying around and munching on the soft Milkweed leaves.
They did notice that every once in a while one of the colony seemed to lose
interest in crawling around with its friends. It would go off alone and
crawl high up in the trees. It gradually moved out of sight and was seen no
more.
“Look!” said one of the caterpillars to another, “one of our colony is
climbing up to the tops of the trees. Where do you think he is going?” Up,
up and up it slowly went…even as they watched, the caterpillar disappeared
from sight. Its friends waited and waited but it didn’t return.
“That’s funny!” said one caterpillar to another. “Wasn’t he happy here?”
asked another. “Where do you suppose he went ?” wondered a third. No one
had an answer. They were greatly puzzled.
Finally one of the caterpillars gathered its friends together. “I have an
idea. The next one of us who climbs to the tops of the trees must promise
to come back and tell us where he or she went and why.”
“We promise…” they all said solemnly.
One spring day not long after the caterpillar who had suggested the plan
found himself climbing high up into the trees. Up up and up he went, higher
and higher into the trees. Before he knew what was happening he had broken
through the canopy of leaves into the warm sunlight and fell into a deep
sleep.
When he awoke he looked about in surprise. He couldn’t believe what he saw.
A startling change had come over his old body. He now had beautiful wings!
Even as he struggled he felt an impulse to move his wings. The warmth of
the sun soon dried the moisture from his new body. He moved his wings again
and suddenly found himself flying into the blue sky.
He had become a butterfly. Swooping and dipping in great curves he flew
through the air. He felt exhilarated in the new atmosphere.
By and by the new butterfly landed on a leaf to rest. Then it was that he
chanced to look below to the bottom of the meadow. Why, he was right above
his old friends the caterpillars! There they were, crawling around and munching on Milkweed, just as he had been doing before.
Then the butterfly remembered his promise. Without thinking the butterfly
darted down. He landed on a flower and looked into the grass. Now that he
was a butterfly he could no longer go back.
“I can’t return!” he said in dismay. “At least I tried, but I can’t keep
my promise. Even if I could go back, not one of the caterpillars would know
me in my new body. I guess I’ll just have to wait until they become
butterflies too. Then they’ll understand what has happened to me and where
I went.”
And the butterfly winged off happily into its new world of sun and air.
Dear God, please remember those who have left the meadow we live in…and
remember us who are still here.
I would like to Thank you, from the bottom of my Heart for watching over my baby and my Dad, while I was gone. Had a really nice time with Samantha and lots of tears too. I really liked her. With all my love Gloria Anthony's Mom XOXO
♥ A Shade of Sadness. ♥
In comes the darkness to my soul
even as I sit in the early morning sun,
the distant sounds of the living
seem far removed from the fogginess of my mind.
♥
In the stillness of the house
which seems quieter than quiet,
time seems to pass too slowly.
♥
A feeling of being outside myself
looking back into an empty shell
of the person I used to be.
♥
I cry for my former self.
That person I once liked and enjoyed.
She is gone.
A loss within a loss, within a loss.
♥
A heaviness in my heart,
the weight of a million tears.
Drowning my emotions,
mixing and swirling in a pool of despair.
Ugly hateful despair.
♥
A sadness so deep and heavy
leaving the body tired and used,
I feel I could sleep,
sleep for a thousand years and never wake up.
♥
A thousand years will not change a thing.
You would still not be here.
What to believe, I don't know.
I just don't know. My soul is lost.
♥
I know not which way to turn.
Where to look,
♥
I feel helpless,
helpless to help my self,
annoyed with the daily things of life I must do.
♥
I don't care, not anymore.
The world could fall upon it's knees
it would not matter,
I am too shrouded in the darkness of my world
that spins ever out of control,
directing my emotions
with no warning as to what feelings
will be brought upon me next.
♥
There is guilt, another weight to bear.
Those who are with me, who I love and love me,
they need me, but I am not ready.
I hold them back at arms length,
I am not ready,
their demands draw on what strength I have left.
For that I am sorry,
but I cannot help bringing on the emotional distance.
There is a need to protect myself,
but from what I am not sure.
♥
There is anger.
Anger that occasionally swells within me.
There is no direction into which to fling this anger.
It is a new and different type of anger
not one I am familiar with and it disturbs me.
It makes me afraid.
♥
I try to be strong. For you, and only you.
I try to think what you would have me do.
♥
I know you would want me to live my life.
To continue on. It is not an easy task, not at all.
♥
Some days I can go out
and meet the world with vigor and say I do this for you.
♥
Some days I must crawl into my shell
and hide from the world that has been so cruel to me.
I am trying.
♥
The days are filled with thoughts of you,
and should I find myself not thinking of you,
I gasp for fear that I am forgetting you.
♥
I have learned to value life, you have taught me this.
To see the beauty in each day given to me,
even through this veil of sad darkness.
I know it is there waiting for me.
♥
Someday the sadness will lift
and I will only think of you
with a smile and warmness in my heart.
My love for you will always be there
that shall never pass
and I hope somehow you know this too.
♥
Your memory is only a heartbeat away.
I shall always love,
I shall always long for you,
I shall always wish to have you back.
And I shall live -- if only for you.
♥
WITH ALL MY LOVE, I WILL BE GONE FOR 2 WEEKS,ANTHONY'S GIRLFRIEND IS COMING TO VISIT ME, TILL JULY 24. TILL THEN ALL OUR BEAUTIFUL ANGELS WILL BE IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. LOVE GLORIA ANTHONY'S MOM XOXO
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